A year ago today, I went back to work.
I wrote
this post after my first day, and after a year I can confidently say that I am happy with where I am at.
We made a change to our childcare situation this year that has made our lives easier. The kids don't cry when I leave anymore and I no longer feel the need to rush home as soon as I am done work.
Though I often do.
I am comfortable in my role at work. I've always believed that it takes a full year to really know if you enjoy the role. And I do. I know when my busy months are and I know that my summer is pretty slow and allows me to relax and enjoy the nice weather.
I have settled into my routine of going to the gym at lunch. I always found that while I was at home that the gym was hard to squeeze in. I love getting it out of the way during the day and for the most part it keeps me out of the mall and spending money!
I say 'for the most' part as I still manage to buy random unplanned for items. For example yesterday I met Gina for lunch at the mall food court and on the way back I stopped at Smart Set to check out what they had left after the boxing week sale. I passed on the dress I liked because it was full price, but I bought a great little patent fuchsia belt for $6. It will go great with my patent fuchsia shoes I randomly purchased before Christmas :)
See what I mean?
I've met some great friends at work. I love the people I work with and this makes a huge difference. On my first day back to the office after holidays , I made many stops at my coworkers desk to visit and ease back into the work routine.
Most importantly, I am comfortable with my decision. When I went back to work after Grady, it was an easy decision. As much as I did not want to leave Grady, I knew that we were planning to have another baby and that I would be at work for about a year before hopefully leaving on maternity leave again.
When I started looking for a job after Cooper, it was a lot harder knowing that it was 'forever'. There would be no more babies, no more maternity leaves, it would be like this for the foreseeable future. That was harder to grasp for me. Did I really want to return to work and leave my babies in someone else's care?
I went out and got a job and went back to work despite my doubts knowing that the only way I would know for sure was to try it. I wouldn't say the transition was easy. Like anything else, it had its ups and downs. Some days went great and others didn't.
One year later, I am happy with the decision and think it works for our family. I miss the kids dearly and want to hear about their day first thing when I get home but I also enjoy getting up each day and heading to the office in my fancy work attire and make up on.
I love having that one extra day a week to spend the day just me and the boys. I get to take Grady to school and spend some one on one with Cooper and then Grady and I do something together while Cooper naps. For now, it is the perfect set up.
For now, until Grady starts Kindergarten and Cooper starts preschool and we find a new normal that works. One thing that we all know about kids is just when you get used to something it all changes!