ahhhh I am starting school!
I am starting this post on Monday night, the night before my oldest son starts preschool. Tomorrow is all about him and ensuring he has the best experience possible. On the eve of his first day I can't help but be worried about how the day will ago. Just over 2 years ago I (or should I say James) dropped my baby off at daycare for the first time. He cried. And over the year he spent at daycare while I was at work he cried almost every day at drop off. I am so thankful to James for dealing with this every single morning before starting his day at work.
I am optimistic that preschool will be better.
Different. Although I have lingering thoughts that the drop offs will be awful like the daycare ones were, I keep reminding myself that he is a different boy then he was only a year ago.
We have been talking about preschool on and off since we registered him in February. We debated whether or not this was a good choice for our family. We don't know when I am going back to work which complicates things. We decided that until I am back at work and the kids are in daycare full time that it would be beneficial for Grady to get some independent time away from me. Our hope is that he will get used to, and even enjoy, time apart from his mommy.
tear tear. We hope that by easing him into this independent time starting at just over 2 hours will help his transition to daycare when the time comes.
Months ago when we first broached the topic with the young man he wanted to know if he got to go on the school bus. I explained to him that Cooper and I would drop him off at school and that we would come back and pick him up. He seems to understand that this is something that he will be doing without me. This week we have been talking about it several times a day.
We have been talking about his teacher by name and about all the new friends he will make. We have been talking about the toilet and telling the teacher when he has to pee or poo. This morning we packed his school bad together and put his name on everything in the bag.
Tomorrow he start school.
I am worried for him. Will he be liked? Will he poop in his underwear? Will he be scared? Will be cry? Will he have fun? Will he like it? Will he make friends? Will they have the cars he keeps asking about? I so want for him to have a great experience.
Tomorrow is orientation day and I get to go with him. I will put on my happiest face and be excited as I can be to show him how much fun school is. Most of me will not be pretending. I am happy and I am excited for him to embark on this journey.
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Jump forward to Tuesday night. The first day is under out belts. How did it go you ask? I wouldn't say it was as good as I had hoped but Grady seemed to like it. He was so excited to put on his backpack and get out of the house this morning that we actually left 15 minutes early, dropped Cooper off with Nana, and went to the bank and drove around while waiting for it to be an appropriate time to arrive.
Can this really be my baby boy? He looks so grown up.
As we walked into the preschool Grady was excited and nervous. I could tell because he insisted on holding my hand. I actually had butterflies in my stomach. We entered the classroom and Grady high tailed it to the truck and car area. He actually asked me this morning if they would have trucks and if they would have as many as him. I told him no one had as many as him!
I started to talk to a Mom of another little boy who loves construction vehicles and before you know it we were talking about poop. Her son is also on stool softeners daily. Crazy how you can instantly connect with other parents who have similar problems.
I think Grady loved the toys and activities they had set up but I have concerns that he wouldn't do anything on his own. I hope that he was just excited to show me everything and wanted me to watch/play with him because I was there. Maybe if I wasn't there he would have happily played by himself or with the other kids. Maybe not?
I am also still concerned about the potty situation. He used the bathroom while we were there but he told me so quietly and shyly that I just can't see him telling the teacher. I fully expect there could be an accident. I asked the teacher about it as we were leaving and she said that many parents put their kids in pull ups the first few weeks so I think that is what I will do. Just to ease my mind a little. But he won't pee in a diaper, I know he won't so it will still lead to discomfort and the potty dance that I hope will be noticed by the teacher.
I think seeing the school and meeting the teacher helped Grady with understanding what school was and it made me more nervous for the drop off on Thursday. I am trying to focus on the positive that Grady asked me when he gets to go by himself. I hope that means he is ready.
Some things I took away from today:
- Make sure he pees before we go to school - there is a sign as you enter the classroom - good idea!
- Make sure that he is well fed and hydrated - he asked for a snack and a drink before the hour was up. Not sure what he will think of the healthy snack and water that is provided :)
Seriously, when did this boy eat my baby?